sick :(

i haven't finish yet for my previous medication.. and the new set one coming. I'm asking for a sick leave ( again) *sigh*. I taught i can stand at least until tomorrow for completing my works as well. But I really2 can't stand anymore. After visiting Dr Jean Dental just now, I went to the clinic for consulting and medication. And the doctor gave me two days of sick leave. Bare in my mind, I have to see the doctor. I feel shaking and i cant stand up very well. My body dehydrate, i have my sore throat, cough, asthma, fever... I can't continue my previous medication for a while. I can feel my body shaking now. oh my God.. :(

I miss him. I just can asking for an apologize from him. Nothing I can do now. :'( I know I'm wrong. I should not told him what happened last night. I hope everything will be okay. I'll not disturbing you for a while. Stay away is the best thing I can do right now to make everything in a normal way. I miss you baby. :'(

3rd month. :)

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BABY FOR OUR 3RD MONTH OF OUR RELATIONSHIP..sound silly because just only for the 3rd month but for us, but no one never knew what am us go through for this 3 months. There are so many things that we need to face in reality. In fantasy we did it . :).. We still in process to know each other better. Give us some support for us to be more strong in this long distance relationship. God create a way for us to meet up, to know each other and not impossible that we're meant to be together. Hope so, Amen :)

Tonight I feel I wanna write something about us in this 3rd month anniversary. I know its sound silly. Weird relationship but what i knew is we belong together are not because of outside appearance. Both of us acceptable. I accepted him for who is he. I never change him to someone that I like. Not of because who he is. And i'm lucky he's the very understanding person and he accepted me for who am i not for who i am. U got it? He never tried to change me being someone else. Most of the time, I feel comfortable.

baby, u have to know that I will always love u.. no matter what... we're like brother sister instead of being couple for this 3 month....whenever u need me, i will always be there for you. We'll meet each other soon. :) We have so many story that we still keep in our heart box. I cant wait for that moment :) Love u b..

Mahal kita. Gusto kong mabuhay sa iyo. Gusto kong bumuo ng isang masayang pamilya sa inyo.. sa pagkakaroon ng sa iyo, ang aking puso bagyo pagkatalo. Ko ipagpalagay na ibinigay ng pagkakataon na ihayag ng isa sa pangungusap isa hininga, maaari ko lang sabihin na mahal kita. :)

Kuching Hot, Dizzy

hot, dizzy, drying.. ayoo... I don't know what happen in kuching right now? the weather sometimes kill me inside .. eeee..rambut pun kering nyah. i brought 1 liter of plain water with me everyday, but still it didn't give any advantage for me to stay healthier. eeee.. my throat feel terrible.... i hope it will be okay sooner. I pelik dengan manusia yang tak minum air langsung at one time. I ni bagai nak rak minum kan tp I pulak kene sore throat. :(( Takkan la cara aku minum salah kot.. Ada kene mengene ke? hahahaha. Mane la tau, kot-kot I have to drink while do a doggie style. wkakkakakakaa. opss.. double meaning tho? haha.. not at ALL. :D :D

I can't wait for this coming June. :)) I wanna meet someone.. SOMEONE that had brighten my life all this while. Give him a big miss-hug :) This world is not perfect, but then, you have to figure out what will make your world getting more perfect . I know from now on , sooner or later, I have my perfect world. My OWN perfect world 5 years later. JACQ, u jiwang lagik! hahahahaahah. Ok what... DOUBLE meaning. hahahahah...

I know I'm too busy sampaikan I abaikan dia. Kalau orang lain, I rasa tak siapa dapat tahan. Dalam sehari, satu mesej pun I tak bagi, malam pun gitu juga...kadang-kadang aku terlupa untuk menjaga hati orang yang paling aku sayang dowh :(. Bak kata adik, mulut kata sayang, tp perilaku dan hati adakah benar-benar sayang? I do love him but give me some times for me untuk ubah perilaku diri, cuba untuk bagi perhatian walau sesibuk mana pun kerje. Aku harap dia faham.. Itu jer aku minta. Kalau diizinkan, aku doakan dia lah yang terakhir dalam hidup aku. orang yang paling penyabar sekali..... ini bukan masa untuk aku menjiwangkan diri aku..tp aku rasa bersalah sangat2...feel guilty kat dia sejak aku keje ni bz memanjang. sorry :*(

cam mane eh aku berjalan?

1. Jika berjalan, dari belakang kelihatan seperti tidak memijak tanah. Golongan wanita yang jalannya berginjat, konon wanita ini adalah wanita yang tidak jujur, kalau berbual, mulutnya laser dan menyinggung perasaan orang lain. Wanita yang berjalan seperti ini juga terkenal dengan sikap egonya. Lebih parah, wanita ini biasanya pemboros atau suka membazir wang tanpa berfikir sebelum berbelanja. Padahal, wang yang dimilikinya itu masih banyak kegunaannya. Tapi jangan berkecil hati, kerana wanita seperti ini biasanya menjadi pujaan ramai lelaki.

2. Jika berjalan, sering menoleh ke kanan and kiri. Wanita seperti ini biasanya pandai menyimpan rahsia. Walaupun ramai yang menganggap wanita seperti ini tidak jujur, suka menipu teman sendiri,dan merugikan teman bualnya, namun, ramai lelaki yang berusaha untuk menakluk hatinya. Konon wanita seperti ini senang diatur dan diuruskan.

3. Jika berjalan suka menunduk. Cara berjalan melambangkan wanita seperti ini memiliki sifat yang tertutup. Ia hanya akan berbual dengan orang-orang yang rapat dengannya dan boleh dipercayai untuk menyimpan rahsianya. Wanita seperti ini biasanya sukar untuk ditakluk hatinya. Disamping sikapnya yang dingin, wanita seperti ini tidak peduli dengan kehidupan cinta. Namun, jika ada lelaki yang berjaya menawan hati wanita dengan cara berjalan menunduk ini, dijamin akan mendapat kebahagiaan. Sebab, wanita jenis ini sangat setia, dan dia tidak akan mengkhianati lelaki yang dicintainya.

4. Jika berjalan menatap lurus ke depan. Wanita seperti ini biasanya memiliki pendirian yang teguh, bukan senang hendak menggoncangkan imannya. Jangan sekali-sekali menentang apa yang pernah dikatanya, jika anda tidak mahu mendengar dia berleter panjang lebar. Meski pendiriannya teguh, tapi dia selalu berselisih pendapat. Jangan hairan jika wanita seperti ini hanya mahu berbual dengan orang yang berpengalaman luas.

5. Jika berjalan badan bergerak ke kanan dan kiri. Wanita yang berjalan dengan gaya yang sedemikian tidak ambil kisah dengan masalah yang berlaku. Apa pun masalah yang ada dihadapannya, dia dianggap kecil. Padahal masalah itu sebenarnya memerlukan kebijaksanaan untuk diselesaikan. Kerana sifatnya yang suka ambil mudah ini, banyak persoalan yang akhirnya tidak dapat diselesaikan dan akibatnya merugikan dirinya sendiri.

6. Jika berjalan badan tampak tegak. Wanita ini tegas menentukan sikapnya sendiri. Dia tidak mahu urusan peribadinya dicampur oleh orang lain. Gaya bicaranya serius seperti ingin menunjukkan dia memiliki pendirian teguh. Yang menarik dari wanita ini, dia bertanggungjawap terhadap apa yang pernah dilakukannya. Dia menyenangi lelaki yang berdikari tanpa meninggalkan sifat-sifat romantiknya.

7. Jika berjalan seperti zirafah. Maksudnya, ketika melangkahkan kaki ,badannya ia kelihatan bergerak ke depan dan ke belakang. Wanita jenis ini sangat lemah perasaannya. Dia seorang yang mudah terasa dan mudah tersinggung. Jadi, jika anda berbual dengan wanita seperti ini kenalah menjaga perasaannya agar tidak tersinggung, kerana wanita ini mudah mengalirkan air mata.

p/s cam mane eh aku berjalan? haha.. i think no 6.. huhu..maaflah kalau sesape yg salu kene tinggal. wkaka

031009 Stephen&Jalvira

My dear slodiq. adiq adiq. eee.. cute. huhu

haha..my uncle mabok sampai nangis.. ha. lawak
joget jangan tak joget

my uncle n my new aunty. hauehuhea

tak bergaya pun. huhu

Stephen & Jalvira

tok la suasana last night. happening giler..pengantin pun masuk sama. wkakakakaa.. gila siut..tp seronok ar... hilang demam ku. wkakakaaa. lagu joget..lagu dangdut..tu jak! wkakkaa. percayalah daku berdangdut juak. -____- eee

Selamat pengantin baru to my uncle and my new aunty. semoga berkekalan ke anak cucu. :P

really annoying

i start with A...end with Z. heh.. pa ku cakap ni~im starting with REALLY ANNOYING

really annoying when someone keep text-ing me, disturbing my life.luckily my digi is not too active right now.. im celcom user nowww ~~ :P..arghhh..podah~

really annoying if my sore throat not relief. -_____-

really annoying if my holiday gonna be one week only...

really annoying when I have to pretend something like it never happen. GILA

really annoying when my english getting worst. macam tak sekolah weh

really annoying when I can't stop myself from thinking of him.. bodoh!

really annoying with the facebooking people that keep on tagging me with the stupid things!! im popular..im cute.. im rich!!! uhhhhh... *add me on fb k.. just find my full name.*

really annoying .............. when i keep on listening to old songs....jiwang karat!!! uh

really annoying if i feel wanna fly somewhere......??? meet who? go and find by urself.

tips untuk hari ini : jangan terlibat dengan sosialisasi sebelum anda rasa menyampah! kerana rasa menyampah sangat lah menyakitkan hati. ah? ada kaitan ke? huhuhu
tolong-tolongg~~ jacccc!! please please think wiselyyyyyy~~ go and write on what is the goodness and the badness. wakakakakaka. go and sleep....sleepppp sheep..wkakakakaa.

p/s : angol di tgh malam. -___-

Valentines Day

Valentine's Day with all its charisma and magnetism brings love in the air, scarlet color of roses painting the town with the vibrancy of love and romance make every heart eager to say it loud, 'I Love You' coz'...it's the Valentine's Day. This is a perfect occasion that marks the sharing of numerous symbols of loves as Valentine gifts among the lovers.14th February has been known as Valentine's Day, a time beloved of romantics. This is the perfect occasion for romantic proposals and dating.

p/s : For my loves one, Cornelius. You may know and you must know that I love you so much. Even though we're not facing to others, but I know our loves chemistry will show unfailing love and tenderness. I will always be loyal to you and make you mine. You will intimately know me as I really am. My love for you is a marathon, not a sprint. With kindness, I will be affectionate to you. My love will not envy you, be jealous of you, or compete with you. You will never hear me boast or brag in order to make you look small. I will never sacrifice your self-esteem on the altar of my ego. I won't be harsh with you or rude to you by my words, by my attitude or actions. Instead of being selfish, I will seek what's in your interest. I won't use anger to intimidate you or to get you to do what I want. I will not be suspicious of you or second-guess you. When you do wrong or when you hurt, I will weep with you. When you do right, and when good things happen for you, I will be your biggest cheerleader; I'll give you a standing ovation. My love is strong enough to go through the toughest time with you. I will be quick to believe you. I will expect the best for you. With you and for you I will go the distance. My love for you is as invincible as I am eternal.

married :D

1. How old are you?
- I am 20


2. Are you single?
- im taken :)

3. In what age do you think you’ll get married?
- I can't predict my future. And that's a that.


4. Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now?
- yup..hahha


5. If not, who do you want to marry?
- still CORNELIUS.. chewahh


6. Do you want a garden/beach wedding, or the traditional church wedding?
- A garden full of swans =P


7.Your ideal motif?
- White and purple. Simple as that.


8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
- Huntington Beach.

9. How many guests do you think you’ll invite?
- I don't even bother.


10. Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
- In between.

11. Do you want the traditional vows or something you’d make up on your own?
- Both.


12. How many layers of cake do you want to have?
- If it's a chocolate cake, five :)


13. Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or at a simple place?
- Hotel.


14. When do you want to get married, evening or morning?
- evening. :)


15. You’d rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?
- indoors


16. Do you like a grand entrance for your groom?
- Not that much.


18. Name the song/tune you’d like played at your wedding.
- why i love u so much.. haha :P


19. Are you a morning person or a night person?
- Night woot woot!!


20. Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?
- Precisely light. ROFL I ain't that gothic doing on the solemn one -.-"


21. What age do you want to get married?
- When my career stabled.


22. Describe your ideal husband/wife.
- HE had it..


23. Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?
- depends


24. Champagne or red wine?
- red wine.


25. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
- Right after the wedding :P


26. Money or household items?
- both


27. Who will pay for the bills?
- We both.


28. Are you ready for married life?
- NO


29. Do u think you will still be a virgin until u get married?
- wtf I will.


30. Will u always be true to your wife/husband?
- ya


31. How many kids do u like?
-2..hhu..much pretty aite?


32. A new house for a newly wed or an old one?
- New.


33. Will u celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding, or diamond wedding?
- diamond wedding


34. What kind of cuisine would u like for ur wedding?
- Whatever


35. Will u record ur honeymoon in a cd or dvd?
- Photos in memories -.-"


36. Whose wedding plans would you like to know next?
- I don't even bother -.-"

kebosanan mencengkam diri :P

• See ya again.
• I'm bored..
• I don't know what gonna I'm doing after this..
• woot.. tsk... wohoooooooo.... :D
• everynites...im chat with this two person...
• first my bestfriend..heuheuehu..
• second... the guy that i love sooo much..
• i'll show u two print screen that i've done... ops..one only k... another one i grab it from raula
• 

the first one is conversation between me and HIM. everynitess OK..haha...
the second one is conversation between me and raula...my bestie :DD

I think thats all for tonight... heuheuehue.. Im bored and I have nothing to do.. hahha.. soo..wallllaaaaa..haha

7 August???????????????????? :sigh:

As usual :

• wake up early 6.00 am -____________-
• took my bath, brushed my teeth, breakfast, what else hah?? erm... put in the important things into my handbag. ahh... skip la hoo..
• efore 7.30 am, i'm ready waiting for my friends at the car park. whoaa...Not me the one who's waiting but them.. hahahahah
• go to pusat serenti.. SERAM wooo.... nothing much special. Can't do anything eventhough wanna take a snap of picture. TERLARANG dan DILARANG
• back again to my college to submit my examination slip. OMG, on 7 August, I have my practicum paper.. 12 noon until 3 pm.. :sigh~~~~~~:
• I can't go to my gendut's convo. :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( I'm frustrated. akai daiii.. kak parai... I call him as soon as possible. But what can we do. Just accept what's going on then.
• I'm at home now blogging.. Then have to offline to play my games. I'm sleepyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
• what should I do then?????????????????????????? under preassure. :(((((((
  

full stop!

• Whoaaaaaaaa... I had two Quiz for today.. -_____________________- for biochemistry, i knew it last Friday. But what's going on with another Quiz?? :rolling eyes: we call it EMERGENCY QUIZ.
  
• lepak with madam nyet2(raula) at her house about 1 hour or within one hour.. bla..blaa...blaa...forgot that I had to enter my class at 12.00pm. :sigh:
• back home earlier. my mood disappear this afternoon. My lab coat I didn't bring.. haihhh...so malang? what do u think?
  
• Cook?? huhuu.. I don't feel like to eat what had my mum cook for lunch.. so?? I maked a plate of fried rice for myself..
• I sleep until one voice disturbing me... -________________- she's the one..huhu.. Grandma ask me to send her to visited her siblings.. I'm a good grandchild also OK.haha.. my eyes rolling again. I got no enough sleep over actually. emmm.. :[
• fetch popo because I came back home just now.
• huuuuuuuu....my gendut busy.. so sedih... :(
• play games...
• tomorrow have to visited pusat serenti... For whattttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG, can't I go? :((